fetus

This week marks the week that the embryo becomes a fetus! Crazy. He/She is the size of a green olive, apparently.

Sean's flight just arrived from Denver and he is in a cab RIGHT NOW, coming home!!! We have our first appointment tomorrow and I can't wait to find out if we can hear a heartbeat or see a picture.

So glad the day has finally come.

sweet tooth

I haven't had any cravings to speak of thus far- in fact, I've been more inclined to eat things that are simple and boring- with no flavor. You know, like crackers, yogurt, pasta, broccoli.

But the sweets. Oh, the sweets. I guess I've wanted more of all things sugary lately.... We don't typically keep sweets in the house so I don't eat them regularly- unless it's movie night or in the form of a chai tea latte- then yes, please.

The last couple of weeks though, I've wanted chocolate milk, ice cream, and 3 Musketeers bars... not good, I know.  I've been restraining myself, but it's hard. Thankfully I haven't gained any weight- yet.

You know what else I've wanted lately? To listen to country music.  I know, it's weird. I think the longer I reside outside of Texas, the more I want to listen to it. Country music has changed a lot since I was a kid- definitely more poppy now, but I have to say, I'm getting back into it.

On today's playlist? Sugarland. Appropriate, huh? Also, I'm making homemade cookies right NOW.

air quality: orange

I think I'm becoming a little obsessed about breathing now that I'm pregnant.  DC is super hot, and it's only the beginning of June. This week on NPR they've been saying that the air quality could be harmful for children and the elderly- and I immediately think to myself, "how can I breathe in only what's necessary and not so much as to harm this little embryo?"

On my walk to the metro, I've been getting stuck behind folks who are enjoying their morning smoke.  Frustrated that I have to walk behind and breathe in their exhaled smoke, I've decided to pretty much speed walk (well, run- a little) until I can pass them up.  I'm sure I look a bit nutso because I always slow down as soon as I get in front of them. 

A couple days this week I've come home and slept for almost 3 hours. And then I go to bed at 10PM.  Given that I haven't felt many symptoms of being pregnant, this excess sleeping makes me wonder if I really am tired or if I'm just lazy.  

I've been dealing with some fears this week, too.  About having something go wrong. Like I said, (thankfully), I haven't had many symptoms- like morning sickness, etc.- but that makes me wonder if everything is actually progressing and going well, you know? I still have two weeks until the first doctor's appointment.  I'm trying to just trust that God has prepared us for this and that all will be well.  It's hard not having Sean here- not being able to share with him when my anxiety creeps up...  We are able to talk everyday, but I often prefer to hear what's going on with him and work and we don't end up talking about baby stuff.     

15 years later and I'm still living and learning to have faith in the One who created ALL things. 

week six

Feeling tired. Got up at six. Emailed work letting them know I'd be staying home sick and went back to bed. Didn't wake up until Noon. Is that normal?

I spent the weekend in Chicago visiting friends, attending a farm wedding, and seeing Sean after 3 weeks apart! We had a great time.  I think all the traveling has made me tired, though. And all I can think about is the fact that I still have 6 trips (5 domestic & 1 international) to go in the next four months.  Whew! I'm exhausted just thinking about it.

So, week six of being pregnant.  Over the last few days, I haven't really felt pregnant- besides being overly tired, I guess? I think immediately after getting the take home test results, something in my psyche led me to believe that I actually felt different.  Now that it's been a couple weeks and that shock has worn off, I'm getting a little worried that I don't feel anything.  I guess it's normal to wonder, huh? Perhaps I should be thankful because I haven't had morning sickness yet, as far as I can tell. I was having a little weird stomach thing over the weekend, but it basically just felt like I was really full or bloated. Gross word, I know.  And, over the last two days, I haven't even felt hungry.

Really counting down the days until 23 June. That's our first appointment. I'll be 9 weeks along by then. Hopefully they'll be able to do an ultrasound while we're there since Sean is flying in for the appointment. It would really stink if they wanted to wait until July (when he'll be back in Colorado).

OK, off to grab some Pho with a friend.  Sounds yummy even though it's 95 degrees outside already... looks like we're in for one.hot.summer.